So the long weekend (4 days) is over and I haven't stepped out of the house...save one trip to Tescos as I ran out of food...
Yes, I'm quite capable of shutting myself in my house with nothing but books and food for company, if I don't see a soul for a month I wouldn't complain... not a chance...
Its not to say that I don't like getting out at all, I'm an avid traveler, and love to explore but I love my solitude even more and for a long time I've looked forward to spending time with only I, me and myself for company.
I did want to see atleast a couple of plays but thanks to the tumble in the tub as I like to call it now, I had to stay at home on Saturday and everything was closed on Easter Sunday and today I couldn't be bothered to step out...
The little voice in my head that nags the life out of me on normal days, went into overdrive from Friday itself... it wanted me to get up at 5.30 in the morning and go for a run... then it wanted me to go shopping... then it wanted me to go watch a play .... then it wanted me to cook...I mean do something... anything other than this shutting myself away from other humans and cozy up with a book... and I kept fighting and as it always happens with me and even though I really enjoyed the time I spent shacked up with books, one part of me was guitly... my mind kept bothering me that I should be out there... meeting new people and making friends...
I try to reason I don't want to meet new people, I don't enjoy putting myself out there, I'm quite content with my life the way it is.... with not even a cat to complicate matters.... so as a peace offering I've decided to take up a hobby, I've decided that every day starting today, I will cook a dish, something that I haven't made in a long time from scratch.... that will put my conscience off my back for a bit... hopefully...
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